The 24/2/2014

I thought we were gonna be together...but when i found out my mistake..its too late... I really dk what to do without you now....i have nothing to lookforward from now on.... I realized what i did wrong. So much wrong. I have never thought for you before. I am always a me person... I am so lost... I want to make it up to you for the last time.... I really have grown .... I know what we can achieve from our relationship... Alot of chances have been given... I just want the last one chance... I need it i will earn it.. 

I will want to be the man in ur life...

25/2/2014

Couldn't handle it ...i almost broke down in the morning....why must it happen to me now...i keep asking myself... Why did i let things reach this point.... Even when listening to songs from your favorite band make me cry.. Now i can fully relate to the lyrics of the song.... 

The emotion behind each words... Now im thinking how can i stay calm when i reach home and see all the things that remind me of you.... I wondered if the same thing happen to you...does Seeing cookie reminds you of the day when u brought him to malacca? Or is he another family to you now? 

I have to be strong.... I have to accept the fact that its over... I almost wanted to send a goodnite to you... Thn i realized that things have change overnight...literally... 

You dun even reply my msg anymore. Did i really push you too far? Suffocating you? Or you just wanna ignore me. Either way...it still hurts me...i wonder if i will ever get out of tis 'trap' that i set for myself... 

Are we friends for now? Or really just friend friends? Idk ...

  Always love you.... Yun Ying Ying.