Why can't i have a 'normal' family? Wait it doesn't exist in this world.

So maybe i should go to the other world to find it.

If there really exist a train. Where those that get forgotten boards. Where memory equals to time. Those forgotten will be on that train till someone remember them.

Few years ago. I should have seen a psychologist. To talk to on a standard basis. Maybe not a real psychologist. Really just someone to 陪。

Its ok. Im slowly getting cold hearted. I really just want a carefree life. If that means i have to give up most of my possessions now. Im willing.

No worries.

I dun hate my family. I like them just the way things were. Nobody gets on each other toes. But sometimes, things simply are not that simple.

Im slowly getting used to it. Just swallowing all the anger that you put it out on me. Not everyone is able to just keep it in.

Sometimes i really believe things will have a big difference if i have someone that is going thru the same situation as me. A sibling. But that is all just a wish. A dream that will never come true.

No one i can open up to.